This year, the word that I chose for what I hope to achieve by the end of the year personally was “INTEGRATION”.
As I thought more about this word, the tarot card that reminded me of “integration” was the card Temperance.
In the Rider Waite version of the card and many other depictions of Temperance (such as Black Cats Tarot and Tarot of the Cat People) show a figure pouring water or mixing liquids to form a new blend or mixture.
It can be a give and take, flowing back and forth, blending two mixtures to create something new, blending it as one.
This can be like an internal alchemical awakening – as we take two or more parts of ourselves and blend together, we create something new comprising of all the other parts.
If you dissect it, you can perhaps still distinguish the other elements down to the chemical components, yet at the same time, something new is created out of it.
SEPARATE, YET UNIFIED
Each of us have different sides of ourselves that we normally keep hidden from certain people, groups or during situations or events.
We have parts of ourselves that shine in the presence of certain people, parts of us that come out and we feel liberated and free.
Some parts of ourselves are neglected, separated from everything else.
We wish these parts could get more attention, but either we don’t have time to explore them further or we forget about it until we really think about them.
Living an “integrated” life, for me, means allowing to recognise and acknowledge these parts of myself and that they are present and always have been.
Lying underneath the surface, they’ve always been there whether I consciously knew it or didn’t have the time to give them much thought.
It’s taking the time to appreciate these elements of myself and to integrate them into my daily life as a way to be myself unapologetically.
(It’s only taken me over three decades realise this and to start doing so.)
INTERNAL ALCHEMY & TAROT
It can take years for most of us to really know who we are outside of labels and what people expect us to be.
Our jobs and careers tend to define us as we try to conform to what is expected from us.
Organizations can mold us into how we fit in and family can also try to tell us who we are based on their hopes and dreams for us.
Tarot can be an excellent way to reflect the mirror back to ourselves and simply asking questions such as:
- Who am I?
- How do other people see me?
- How do I see myself?
- How can I blend aspects of myself to unify them?
- How can I be more myself with my environment / work / home / relationships / life?
These questions can help you to live a more integrated life to be yourself in everything that you do – and hopefully feel more comfortable in doing so.
You can even turn these questions into a simple tarot spread to explore these topics.
To learn and explore deeper about yourself and how to integrate these parts of yourself into your life more fully.
Think of yourself as an alchemist bringing these basic, elemental components of yourself to work them together in harmony, in unison.
How would you do it?
Would you work on things from the past?
Work on things in the present?
Accept and acknowledge the shadow self?
Change to improve and better yourself?
How do you feel these internal alchemical processes work for you?
There may come a time when you realise that your life may be focused on one direction or aspect only, that other aspects of your life may be neglected.
More often than not, one particular thing or situation has taken up a lot of your time and energy.
You can try to pick one new thing to focus your attention on, but other aspects may still be neglected.
These matters that may have been neglected or overlooked don’t necessarily have to be something outside of yourself.
These can be parts of yourself that need attention to come forward.
We often neglect parts of ourselves, sacrifice ourselves for other things that take priority or need more attention.
These can be parts of your healing process (physical, mental or emotional), hobbies, interests, etc. that can feel neglected, may have not had time for or even thought about putting a name to them.
BE AN ALCHEMIST, BE YOURSELF
When it comes to elements of yourself that you feel you’ve neglected or hid from others, you can feel disconnected from your surroundings or relationships.
This is the internal alchemical awakening allowing yourself to feel that you can be 100% yourself in everything that you do.
This can mean combining everything into one as who you are: physical health, mental health, emotional health, sexuality, personal identity, gender, interests, hobbies, likes, dislikes, etc. and blend these together to create YOU.
The uniqueness that is undeniably YOU.
No one else has the exact component make-up of who you are to the exact same percentage.
That’s what makes all of us different and unique.
It’s what makes you who you are.
Live life to the fullest and continue be you this year and always.
Explore who you are, delve deeper with tarot, uncover more about yourself and live unapologetically as yourself.
Be weird if you want.
Share parts of yourself if you want or keep them to yourself if you want, but recognise those parts.
Discover more about yourself.
Become an alchemist to transform yourself and your life.
Stacey & the Tarot Pugs
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